Little Blessings

There have been so many little blessings in our life lately I just had to share!


We are expecting two more neices or nephews in 2011! One is due in February and one is due in April! (Sister in law's on Ross's side) We are so excited for these babies to come and wish both of the mommies a happy and healthy pregnancy!!!


A few weeks ago Ross received direct contact from his birth sister who he has never met!!! (She was given up for adoption 38 years ago because her parents were too young to take care of her). We are excited to build a relationship with her and learn more about her! We feel God played a huge part in this process of finding her. Sometime maybe I will tell the whole story but will wait for now. It will give you goosebumps though, I'll leave it to that.


Ok..these were more than just little blessings. These are HUGE blessings!!!


As the fall leaves are turning, the weather getting cooler and the football fans getting louder, I realize that yet again another year is coming vastly to a close and I am getting closer to celebrating two years in complete remission. Though two years may not seem very long to some, it is centuries to me. Years that have given me back that spark in life, that drive, and the energy to "Seize the Day."


Yet again, this is the very thing that could possibly be taken away from me if we choose to have another baby biologically. The selfish thing that I don't think I'm ready to give up...my health. This has been so heavy in my heart lately and I feel I need to talk openly about it on my blog to get it off my chest. I wake up some days feeling like my family is not complete and knowing that God has a plan for us to expand it someday. But then, some other days I wake up and feel complete. Our family is what it is, and we are 100% content with it. This is God's plan for us and I have accepted that. I hate being torn. I feel like there should be a strong urge one way or the other, but there's not. Maybe God isn't ready for us to make that decision yet. Maybe I feel the pressure to make that decision so soon because Nolan is turning three in February. Or Ross turning 30 in June. Or me turning 28 next July. Or me being healthy at this point in my life. I don't know....


Either way, I'm asking God to lead me into the right direction. I am asking for the strength and direction and if I am meant to be a mother a second time, I will be one. And if I'm meant to be just a Mother to Nolan and a Step-Mother to Ian, I will be just that and I will be 100% happy with that.

Please pray that this decision that God makes for us is accepted with open arms by not only myself but my husband.

Happy Fall to everyone!